BestFriends Forever

Back then, I wish that our bonds must be cut-off.

Temporarily, it felt good until i feel that our relationship is suffocating and more controlling.

I persistently demolish the fact that i need you.

You are too heavy to carry but as a shield, i began to feel a comfort when you're beside me.

I bleed but you tell me that its okay as long as we're together..and i know you are right.

We play silently and alone on my room. So silent that even the closest person to me did not even notice it.

When I went to school, we agreed that that you wil be left behind.

When I went home, you agreed to stay away from me so that my family wont know.

Yeah its hard for you but thank you that you just sticked to the plan.

For two years, our relationship grow too fast that i thought you are indeed a good friend.

In you, all my fear, discouragement, frustrations were hiden from their criticism and greater expectation.

One weekend, while i was alone you said that maybe we can have a very memorable moment.

I maybe out of mind then that i almost did a biggest mistake of my life.

Again, i saw myself bleeding but i didnt think of other things but to escape with you.

1 day and two nights, I stare in infinity of time.

I saw my soul departed from my body as familiar faces cries around me.

But fate really is cruel, i dont deserve to end up my life that simple-i wake up the next day.

Graduation past and i got a job in which i am still now.

For 7.6 years, were together, invisible and free from criticism.

I must thank you for not leaving me.

Some says I am different but I laugh it off.

yeah, I laugh it off, because they are all the same.

Some says I am good, and it feels so good to hear.

For I made a great effort to hide you.

For I dont want them to see my invisible wound.

Some says i dont have any reason to have you beside me.

Because they dont really know what we've been through.

You and I, my friend, is a powerfull shield against invaders who dont have other intention but to hurt us.

For i want to keep up with peoples great expectation.

And I take pride that i am standing still despite the wound i have in the most vital part of my being-my heart.

I leave my life alone and i must be strong for i am still breathing despite the bleeding of my soul.

I understand that i am not living for my own.

I am living for my family- and that is the most important thing.

I must survive-for you said that we must be together until the end.

Each day, I feel more and more of you and i am getting sicked of my life.

To be honest, this is the reason why i go to sleep too early.

That my mind rest in quietness of night, even for only few hours.

But dont worry i am yours still because we're bestfriend, right?

"Pain and Jane foever"

PAIN in My Heart

Here I am alone in this empty room
And let my mind fly you to the end
Thoughts of you still linger in my memory

Wondering why my Life is not that fair

I could still recall

Those memories of you

The joy and all your laughter

The love that we've been through

Oh, I can't believe you're gone

Oh, no

Talkin to myself for no reasons I could find

Findin' out why everything went wrong

Tears falling down my cheeks that

I've been trying to hold

It doesnt know if I could still go on

I wanted you to stay

The tears begin to show

You said you cared for me

But then you had to go

And now I know you're gone

But I dont want to remember

The things (we used do/that we've been through)

And all the things that remind me of you

And I dont want to hear the songs

The songs we used to sing

'Coz I dont wanna feel the pain in my heart

I just can't believe you're gone

No, no..

I dont wanna feel

Yeah, I dont wanna feel the pain in my heart

I dont wanna feel, dont know what went wrong ohhh..

Angel of Sadness

My Loneliness is my Strenght..

Blood of My Soul

I just heard it loud to my ears..

So will I say its not true?

Then why I am bleeding?

No need to deny the feeling

No need to play hide and seek.

For this time, I know

It is the truth that I must faced.

Same thing with the wound

Long time forgotten,

At least i could say that

It hurts no more..

Feelings lost.

But now

The what I supposed to be scar,

Long time healed

Long time ignored

Long time kept

In secret vault of sadness.

I look down and saw all were still there,

I loss all my emotion

I loss all my pride

I am bathing in blood

I am not shocked

I know that this will end..

But the saddest thing is that

It only just began..:-(

Beneath your Wings

Cant recall the last time i come with You.

But last night..I decided that I need to..

How could I forget that moment,

When I bow down and loss all

Of my pride and let myself rest

In silence and peace

In loving embrace of Your presence?

I loss a cup of diamonds

which i kept inside for years

of guilt and unforgiveness

And I dont have any regrets

but strenght that atlast

I give up and surrender.

All my heartaches

and worries..

I can NO longer bear

So I must say

that little moment

I felt as if eternity comes

and lost my soul to it.

How I wish that

it may NOT end

so that I may not feel

again the PAIN.

And Wake no more

in live nightmare

that devours my day to day

I wish I could be dead by tomorrow

And escaped past to my burden

and to bear heavy the weight.

But you, keeps me awake and

Let me open my eyes in daylight

That I may find my rest in dawn...

STEVEN SILVA

mY StEvEN..Sarangheayo Oppah!

Kindness

Kindness

is the

Language

which

the

DEAF

can HEAR

and the

BLIND

can SEE