We enjoy warmth because we have been cold. We appreciate light because we have been in darkness. By the same token, we can experience joy because we have known sadness...
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Friday, June 25, 2010
Time to Rest
06/25/10
Friday
CVL from June 26 to June 30.
I. So what am I supposed to do with this LONG DAYS at HOME?
II. I got 3 ANGELS today O:-)
1. an angel saved me from being late with his cutie wheels..
2. an Angel of Happiness..not a new angel to mention but glad that he's there always.
3. An Angel of Gratitude, who says hes happy that someone appreciate the good little deeds.
Thank you all for being there.
It will be a long vacation and i supposed to be with my nanay and tatay in Bicol yet with my little penny,
I can afford nothing but HAPPINESS away from sickness.
Thank you my ANGELS for always being there.
I thank GOD for meeting you this day.
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
An Angels Kiss Part2
"..For where YOU go,
I will GO.."
This is a big decision I had made on the first day I decided to be with ypu.
I know that it is MORe than FEELINGS..
It is a decision of LOVE.
It is deciding to be there, COME what may..
It is a decision to sacrifice, it needed. It is
CHOOSING to re-decide it ALL over tomorrow and the
NEXT day and NEXT...
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
An Angel's Kiss
Someone, somewhere
is thinking of you.
And that's ME.
I think about you each MORNING.
Had you eaten your breakfast?
And in each LUNCh, I am still thinking,
if you eat well.
And when its time for you to sleep,
I cant help but to look at you.
If ONLY i can touch your face..
and share each TEARS
that roll down your CHEEKS..
I WANT to tell you that
EVERYTHING will be ALRIGHT.
I am CRYING because YOU are crying.
I LOVES you very MUCH.
You are the APPLE of my EYES
but HOW can I LET you KNOW about this?
When you dont EVEN care to TALK with ME?
I sit beside you everyday.
In a silent space and empty halls
I am always there and it FEELS
so SAD that I cant EVEN TALK with YOU..
I patiently WAITING for you
To TALK with ME..
And TELL me ALL your HURTS..
And I want To TELL you, too
That it HURTS me so BAD
to SEE you in your LONELINESS..
My DEAREST friend,
When you was BORN,
I was BORN with YOU.
Your HAPPINESS is MY HAPPINESS
You SADNESS is my MISERY
and ALL i WANT to DO
ALL my LIFe
IS to LET you FEEL..you are IMPORTANT to ME
Monday, June 21, 2010
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Doubted Angel
11/28/08 6:46pm
She kneel on silent acceptance,
Her head bowed down in submission
With her weak wings beside her
Bore more heaviness on her shoulders..
She looked as if no one is there,
She passed so silently in fear
and she cares so much Not to get notice
as if to convince herself that she never exist.
She went her way and no one dare
to ask if shes OK
For she smile and pretend she is..
When i saw her i felt great sadness
With her eyes that reflects all my fear and doubt
With her wings that never as white as is should be..
I looked her and she looked pass through me..
And i found my self in deep sadness again......
A Bunch of Sadness
Thursday, June 17, 2010
SAD SONG
KIM JUNG HOON
I'm going to sing this sad song for you..my love
(Lu lu lu lu lu lu lu-)
mata hitotsu asaga kite, bokuno karada wa
kiminoinai sekaini narete yukuyokan
BIRuno madoni sashimo kinirono SUNLIGHT
kimiga maiasa miteta kagami terasuyo
Itsudatte soudatta
TEEBURUno ueni
wasurete yuku kuse
You were everything
just EVERYTHING I had
hanaku kiete ita tooku
You were everything
and someone I DIE for
ushinau kotono imiwo shirinagara
baby hitoride ikite yukuyo
Shiawasetoiu tane wo, kono heya chuuni
kimiwa egao tomoni maite kuretane
hitori kirino kosareta
bokuno namidewa nanimo sakanaiyo (oh)
You were EVERYTHING
Just everything I HAD
dorehou tewo nobashitemo todokanai
BABY futari no anohi biniwa
Kurekaeshi itta I LOVE YOU
Sayonarawo jikan shittetayori
notto hoshikunaru
(Yeah..yeah..yeah..)
You were my everuthing
(You were everything)
Just everything I had
kokorowa kimini aeru bashouhe
You were everything
and SOMEONE I DIE for ushinu
kotono IMIWO shirigara
BABY hitoride ikite yukoyo
(Lu lu lu lu lu lu lu -)
I FIND by LOSING YOU
I hold fast by Letting GO
I become something NEW by ceasing to be something OLD.
This seems to be close to the HEART of that MYSTERY.
I know NO MORE now than I ever DID about the FAR side
of DEATH as the LETTING-GO of ALL,
But NOW
I know that I DO NOT NEED TO KNOW,
and that I DO NOT need
to be AFRAID of NOT knowing
for
GOD KNOWS...
and that is
ALL that MATTERS...
I become something NEW by ceasing to be something OLD.
This seems to be close to the HEART of that MYSTERY.
I know NO MORE now than I ever DID about the FAR side
of DEATH as the LETTING-GO of ALL,
But NOW
I know that I DO NOT NEED TO KNOW,
and that I DO NOT need
to be AFRAID of NOT knowing
for
GOD KNOWS...
and that is
ALL that MATTERS...
Letting Go
There are things that i want to let go of, and people i never want to leave behind.
But i want to understand that letting GO ISN'T the END of the WORLD..but
a BEGINNING of a NEW LIFE..
To let GO
is NOT to be in the middle arranging all the OUTCOMES
BUT to ALLOW others to affect their DESTINIES
TO let GO is not to be protective,
it's to PERMIT another to FACE reality.
To LET GO is NOT to DENY
but to ACCEPT.
To let go is NOT to NAG, scold or ARGUE
but instead to search out MY OWN shortcomings and CORRECT them.
To let GO is not to adjust everything to my DESIRES,
but to take each day as it COMES and CHERISH myself in it.
TO let go is NOT to criticize or REGULATE ANYBODY,
but to try to become what I DREAM to be.
To Let GO is NOT to regret the PAST
but to GROW and LIVE for the future
TO let GO is to FEAR Less and to LOVE more
To let GO is to let GOD, is to find peace...
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Sad Truth
When the door of HAPPINESS closes,
Another OPENS but OFTENtimes
we LOOK so LONG at the closed door that we dont SEE
the ONE which has been OPENED for us...
maybe GOD wants us
to MEET a few WRONG people before
meeting the RIGHT ONE
so that when we FINALLY meet
the right PERSON
we will KNOW how to be GRATEFULL
for that GIFT...
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
When everyone asleep
I had a bad dream last night.
I saw a vivid scene of a man and woman in tragic death.
The scene is so real. I got a child of about 2-4 years old beside me.
I cant identify if the child is a girl or boy but the child is looking at me.
The child wears nothing but blood.
It's weird, in that dream the dead bodies wrapped in leaves and sacks was my parents but there was no scene that i am crying, i am just looking at the dead bodies..
Then I woke up..its 4:36AM.
Too early to take a bath so i close my eyes again..until 5:15am.
I remembered the movie which i watched last Sunday, "Species"..
:-) hehehe yan kasi kakapanood ko ng horror...
I saw a vivid scene of a man and woman in tragic death.
The scene is so real. I got a child of about 2-4 years old beside me.
I cant identify if the child is a girl or boy but the child is looking at me.
The child wears nothing but blood.
It's weird, in that dream the dead bodies wrapped in leaves and sacks was my parents but there was no scene that i am crying, i am just looking at the dead bodies..
Then I woke up..its 4:36AM.
Too early to take a bath so i close my eyes again..until 5:15am.
I remembered the movie which i watched last Sunday, "Species"..
:-) hehehe yan kasi kakapanood ko ng horror...
Monday, June 14, 2010
Holding On
Its hard to hold on to something that you know would NEVER be yours in any way you think so you just have to LEARN to LET GO and face the fact that while good things never last..some dont even start..
A Song for a Sad Soul
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Sad Afternoon
I spent my time cleaning up my FB.
It was all that messed. Deleted my profile pix and albums. Changed my account name.
I was hesitant what should be my new account name: ofcourse, not my name again.
Sad that I have to. But I should.
So i type a new name..and after four hours.. Sad Angel was born..
Sad, that i have to closed my FB account.
But i chose to kill that girl..and let Sad Angel came to life through my old FB account..
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I should be HOME now
I should not be crying now, if only I am home..because its my mother's birthday :-(
Sad Afternoon
I spent my time cleaning up my FB.
It was all that messed. Deleted my profile pix and albums. Changed my account name.
I was hesitant what should be my new account name: ofcourse, not my name again.
Sad that I have to. But I should.
So i type a new name..and after four hours.. Sad Angel was born..
Sad, that i have to closed my FB account.
But i chose to kill that girl..and let Sad Angel came to life through my old FB account..
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I should be HOME now
I should not be crying now, if only I am home..because its my mother's birthday :-(
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